Like a Wave of the Sea

In our lives there are so many choices to make, from the moment we open our eyes in the morning to the moment we close them there are a huge amount of things that we have to choose. Some of these things can be as easy as: “Should I brush my teeth today?”, in which case hopefully the answer is yes not only for your sake but for the sake of others. But there are also other choices to make, hard ones, the ones that we know are right but our minds fight us to go the opposite way. An then there are the ones where we have no idea where to go or what to do.

In all these scenarios, in some more than others of course, we need wisdom. One of the ways of gaining wisdom is through the years, just living, learning, seeing, hearing. But then there is the other way, the humbling way of knowing that on your own you will not get as good an answer as if you asked another.

Here is where we get to some of the main points that I want to talk about, the Bible says that if we lack wisdom, we should ask God. It says that he will not only answer but that he will do it generously to all and that he will do it without finding fault. He will not punish you for not knowing the answers, he will just provide the correct answers needed in your situations. Our part in this I believe is the trickiest part, Why? Because we are proud, because we think that we know it all and that we know better, because it is hard for us to grasp that the uncreated ruler of the universe cares for us so deeply that he will give us wisdom even in the most simple situations. The good thing about this is that he does and he has said that he will give it to us and in a great measure, if we just ask.

The second part in this is our attitude when asking. When we ask God we need to stand firm on the realization that he will answer, we need to believe and have no doubts that we will receive what we ask for. I remember when I was a kid and living in Isabela, Puerto Rico I always lived minutes away from the beach. It was always interesting to me that whenever you brought a mask or cup or anything for that matter to the water you had to hold on to it. There was no putting it on a certain area of the water to keep it safe, the waves wouldn’t allow for that. The waves of the sea would go crazy with your mask and in a matter of minutes or even seconds it would be lost, getting further and further away from the shore with the water currents. There is hardly any stability in the sea, there is always movement because even if it’s a little there is always wind, the wind who is mostly responsible for blowing and tossing the waves. Our attitude when we ask God for wisdom must be an unwavering, solid belief that he will answer. When we doubt we become like those waves in the sea, tossed and blown by the wind, with no stability, nothing to hold on to and just getting further and further from solid ground.

We live in times where we are in a desperate need for wisdom. God has promised that he will give it generously to us if we ask and believe that we will receive it. He is wanting, longing to help us in our daily lives and making the best even from our most mundane decisions. Just ask, believe and he will answer, generously. 

And remember, if the question is: Should I brush my teeth? The answer is clearly yes.

If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. James 1:5-6

Pure

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. Matthew 5:8

Now there is a reason for purity and for living a holy life. When our hearts are pure our eyes are opened. There are many things said about why to live in holiness. There are also many frugal attempts at it that just end in despair. Maybe we want to live on holiness without knowing the real why or the best one for that matter. Maybe we want to try it just beause it’s the right thing to do or because the Bible says so or because good things will come our way if we do. I have tried for all these reasons and many more. But reading Matthew 5:8 brings something stronger, something that can radically change all I have been through, all that I have seen.

The eternal God, the invisible one becomes visible to a certain type of people and I would like to be one of them. The pure of heart shall see him. I shall see him. Now, there is a reason.

Guard your heart, open your eyes.

My Desire

When I think about things that i would like to accomplish I am always faced with some realities that stop me from getting there.  My current situation needs change. I believe that in order to see the things that I desire come into being I need to make a decision to live differently.

I truly believe that the only source of true satisfaction is a life surrendered to Jesus. I have experienced it, the most significant times in my life have been those when I have laid every area of my life down and decided to choose Him. But lately something has changed, for the worst. It is like I have lost hold of that which my heart truly desires, an intimate relationship with the one who created me. I have lost sight of Him, and when that happens, the door has been opened for chaos to come and rule.  There is nothing that can fix that, only Him, working in me. I am glad that I am coming to see this now, it would be a lot worse if I just keep living away from that deep place in Him and someday realize that he is nowhere to be found.

My Desire is to live a life fully satisfied. To experience everyday the excitement of living for something greater than myself. A life that doesn’t focus on “things” that will disappear, but that is truly focused on the unseen, the eternal. I believe change is coming, but I have prayed many times for God to not allow greater things come into my life if I am not being a good steward of my now. It is a crazy prayer but I don’t want to go higher areas if I haven’t been loyal in the small ones. I have prayed for God to not allow me to get into a relationship before I have dealt with some issues in my life and everyday I see how he guides me to what He knows is best. I just trust. 

If you ask God for something for your own well being and that of others, believe me, he listens and answers.

A friend had a dream of me two nights ago. In his dream, I was leaving, going to a new place, after getting into a brand new white car. He gave more details, but I quickly got the message regarding my situation. A pure, holy life, a different mindset is what will take me to the new level which God has prepared for me.

I pray again, God, mold me, change me, give me a greater perspective of what I was created to be and what you want to do through me. Let me know and realize the things that I may have missed or will miss if the necessary changes don’t occur. I ask you, the Creator of everything, to help me, because I know that you are the only one one who can bring true, lasting change and satisfaction.

Selah.

Nothing

There is nothing, nothing good or bad that I can do to make God love me less.

There is nothing that I can do to make God love me more.

He is just that. Love in its purest, strongest, most violent form.

Changes…

So… I wanted change…

Here it is… I got a new position at work. I used to be a Training and Development Support Specialist… pretty long title. Now I am working as one of the three Partner Services Coordinators… There’s not a lot of changes from what I’ve been doing for the last several months, but I think it will be good.

Things are rarely as I expect them to be. Anytime I try to plan something in my life… something like this happens which is cool with me, because I know God is working. I really need to do something with my talents though, I have put graphic design and media to the side, and that is what i really want to work on. I say that I don’t have enough time, but I think are excuses. I should sleep more and put more effort into that area.

Speaking of wasting time, Ben and I bought seasons 1-5 of CSI: Miami. It is awesome! Horatio rules.

Today I moved to my new workplace… I’m exhausted… that’s it for now.

God said that if I…

… Seek his kingdom and it’s righteousness all the other things shall
be added. No wonder things are not being added. I haven’t been
seeking, knocking, doing as I should.

Sometimes it sucks

Life is good but it sometimes sucks specially when things are not the way you want then to be. It also sucks when you want to do stuff and don’t do them and other things that you do want to do, you skip them. I’m a bit upset with myself and my current situation.

Having said that, God is good.

The blue old couch

After a bad night, morning always comes. A new day. A new chance.

As I sat in my living room sofa to read my Bible while sipping some puertorrican coffee and I believe God gave me some insight in some things in my life.

I walked into the living room and opened one of the windows as days are already getting warmer in Texas. Then I sat in the big couch and realized that a soothing breeze was flowing through the window. So, my response to this was to get up and move to the couch next to that window, the blue old couch.

I realized that I had gained not only a nice breeze but also light. And the thought came to my mind: It is much better to bein the light.

In the Light:
- We know what direction to take, where to go, where to move.
- We know what is surrounding us, good or bad.
- We can see everything clearly.
- We are free to move without fear.
- Attacks are visible from afar.
- We can see who is next to us… and who is not.
- We can see even ourselves much better, just as we are.
- We can see what things need to be done and changes that need to be made.
- We can see which doors are open… and which doors are closed.

Granted, living in the light is much better than living in the dark. It takes work, becaue even though living in the dark is harder, our eyes get used to it and after some time we get accustomed to being in the shadows.

So, it takes a willing heart to take a stand, get up and… move to the blue old couch.

God of Pepsi, God of all things.

Unbelievable how God cares of even the smallest things in our lives. If you know me, I like Pepsi, it is my beverage of choice. I prefer pepsi over coke, hands down. So, here I was in Wal-Mart my friend Ben, we went around and bought some stuff that we needed… you know, bread, milk, cheetos. We also bought one of those roasted chickens that they sell there for just a few bucks. We rented a movie called King of California at the Redbox in Wal-Mart, not exactly the movie we had in mind but all the others were out, it ended being a really good movie and it was worth the wait, people take a long time choosing movies there. After getting the movie we walked outside the store and headed to the car when we got to the parking lot… there it was… it was weird… a blue can… rolling through the road. I thought, that can has to be full, it’s going at a different pace than the one it would have if it were empty. I kept walking, Ben did not see the can rolling, but he took a left heading to where the car was parked. As I walked behind him, there it came… a full can of Pepsi, rolled right in front of me and stopped at my feet. It could have been Coke, Mountain Dew or even Diet Pepsi. But no, it was a full can of Pepsi, nice and cold. I stooped down and picked it up, there was no one around, no one claiming it. We walked to the car and then, that was it, I realized how God cares about us. He knows I don’t specifically need a Pepsi, but he sure knows I like them and he loves to bless us. If a good father gives good things to his children, how much more would God, the perfect image of a Father would delight himself on giving us, His dear children, something that will make us happy and remind us that no matter what we go through, He is there, looking… loving us with all that He is.Father, Thank you for my Pepsi. I love You.